FYI: This is a raw, post that won’t be talking about essential oils, crunchy mom life, or even vegan fancy pants cosmetics and recipes. So, if hearing about my manic mood swings isn’t for you? Come back in a week when I’m talking about a new DIY recipe or crystal I added to my collection. Love you!
I’m attempting to work on some pretty deep personal development. I started last year and while I have made some progress when it comes to how I treat myself and how I talk to myself. You have to love yourself first, right? Now, my 2019 focus is to become more aware of how I treat others and how I react to certain situations that come up throughout the day.
Doing this type of work is ugly and messy! All of the emotions and realizations about yourself truly come to the surface and where you think you’re the best person to grace the planet? Doing personal development work means admitting you’re not. It means admitting you treat people pretty shitty sometimes, and it’s usually ALWAYS the people who mean the most TO you and who are doing the most FOR you! In this case, it’s been my husband and my Mom. Not cool. Not fair. Not who I am.
But, when you feel like you have to do ALL THE THINGS? Yeah. You tend to lash out irrationally. The kicker is that almost at the same time last year I made a post discussing my stress. So, after some pretty intense conversations I’m working on prioritizing. The most important thing to me is hands down Leo’s health, happiness, and well being. If that’s a 10 to me, then laundry shouldn’t be a 7. Doing dishes shouldn’t be a 6, and MOST DEFINITELY wondering if the dog has been walked shouldn’t be an 8.
Everything is not an emergency.
That, my friends is my 2019 mantra.
In other words? I’m really going to try to not yell at my husband and my Mom and overreact to the things I can’t control. I’m going to try really hard to take a moment to think. Think. Breathe. Repeat.